Chapter 31: Just for tonight..
If I had the power to control the time..
Or just if, time travel do exist..
All I want to do is just to go back to the past..
And fix from the moment where everything goes wrong..
Or most probably,
It would be the best if I go back to the past..
Where everything started..
And prevent it from happening..
So that no feelings get messed up..
Sometimes I just wonder..
How would my life be if you're still around...
Would I be at this place now..?
Or would I be able to complete what am I was hope to be..?
Because all of the while,
You used to be the strength..
The one whom trusted by my family to deal with me..
As they belief you could influence me the most..
Well.. They're right after all...
Both of us used to be in pain..
And I belief, nothing bothers you now..
You might even be happier than you use to be..
While here I am, pretending like nothing about you bothers me anymore..
But if I need to be honest with myself..
sometimes I wonder..
Am I the only person whom still haven't fully heal?
Because right now, my mind is totally filled by you..
Just for tonight,
Allah send you this message..
That here I am, still missing you..
I'm sorry for this random stake of mind.. I'm not in my right mind and I'm just feeling to write.. I'm sorry if reading this made you uncomfortable.. Insya-Allah, I would be back at the right state on my next post..